It’s 6th of July today, and my sis is leaving in another few days. The depression is hitting once again. I’m home alone right now, no one’s here and the house feels so empty, it’s like I’m in a ghost town or something. No sound of laughter, no one to say ‘kaala’ and give me flying kisses every now and then. No one to come and type gibberish on the keyboard-- I feel so
alone.
It’s supposed to be a part of life, your sister getting married and moving away, but it feels like losing a part of you. I never cried on her wedding, it wasn’t till the next day when I was flying back to Dubai and saying goodbye to her at the airport that I realised that I was
actually losing her. We would be in two different countries, in two different worlds, and it was basically an end to one phase of my life. I’m wondering how many parts of yourself you can lose before there’s nothing left?

This is the first time I saw my niece, she’s an absolute cutie (MashaAllah), but the though of her going away is piercing. I don’t know what I’m going to do. I really wish I could live in this moment forever. Keep her like this forever. Maybe the next time around she won’t even know who I am. I’m starting to realise a little bit why we always remain kids for our mothers, no matter how old you get. I feel like that about Imaan, and she’s just my niece.
Ri left today, sis will leave in a few days and so will Imaan. Life just sucks at times!!!