The last year

We're always learning, at every single moment in our lives. But mostly, we fail to realize or register what we have learnt till we reach a certain point and we all of a sudden reanalyze our entire life. One such moment was my birthday, which passed a couple of days back. For the first time, I felt like I'd grown up. This time around, even more of my friends forgot the day and surprisingly, I hardly cared.

One thing I've learnt is that people really don't expect anything from anyone. Or let me rephrase that, expectations ARE there, but they aren't, real, as such. We all want a lot of things, but if we do get that, it stops to matter. The value of the expectation, the desire, somehow diminishes. People expect not because they want their expectations fulfilled, but because it's human nature to want what we don't have. And because they think it will somehow make them happy, which never really happens.

Also, money is just greed, no matter how much you have, you always want/need more. Whether you're earning 3000 or 12000, you still need more to fulfill your desires. If I gave you a million dirhams today, you'd think 5 million would have been a better amount.

Unconditional love. There's no such thing. There's always a breaking point. A point beyond which, it's difficult to.. love. 

Nothing ever stays the same. Ever. Relationships. Friendships. Life is fast and cruel. Your world changes all the time. Priorities change. People change. And I HATE change. So I'm always swimming against the current.

Words, are JUST words. People don't always mean what they say. I don't mean they lie. But they don't expect to be held to their words. It was just something said, like a particle of dust in the wind. But it's forgotten that dust particles always come to settle somewhere. 

Everybody has a story. And everybody's story is the saddest of all. It's impossible to look beyond that.

People are only genuinely happy for you when they're happy themselves. At all other times, your happiness is a source of discomfort to them.

The thing I'm most scared of, is being alone. It's something I've ALWAYS been scared of. This fear goes really far back and what I've realized is that, unless I get rid of this fear, I AM going to end up alone. 

And also, I don't fit anywhere. Life is bent on changing me. And I AM starting to change. And grow up. And no, not in the learning responsibilities way, but in the slowly losing the-happy-ever-after concept. About time I stopped believing in fairytales.